Thursday, 10/28 -- Mental spew.

Today we went for my CAT Scan. It was routine and uneventful.

Wait a second. It just struck me that CAT Scans have now become "routine" for me. Routine?!?!?!

Now that I think of it, so has the weekly doctor's appointments. The blood tests. Feeling like poop. Taking a pile of horse pills twice a day. Aches and pains. Lack of hair. and on and on...

It's all become routine.

I guess that's what they mean when they say that for many people cancer has become a chronic disease, something that you learn to live with and treat on a daily basis. It is not something that is happening to you, rather it is slowly becoming, in part, who you are.

It all snuck up on me. That's creepy.

I don't quite like the sound of all this. I still see myself being completely free from all this crap someday. The idea that it's become a routine fact of life is freaking me out.

I'll have to think more about this. Right now I'm typing as I'm thinking. I'd rather not do that. Don't want to sound like more of an idiot than I already do.

By the way, I'll be in a cooking class all day Friday, Saturday and Sunday. It's a whole foods/natural foods cooking class at Drexel University being taught by Christina Perillo. She has a cooking show on PBS called Christina Cooks. She lives in the area and occasionally teaches cooking classes. I'll be there with my brother, sister and sister-in-law. I'll "dish" the details tomorrow night.

Cheers
Eric