Saturday & Sunday, 12/18 & 19 -- No pain, no gain. I can do without gain, thank you.
As planned, I spent most of the weekend on the couch or in bed.
I know it may sound like fun, especially if you are reading this on Monday morning. Let me tell you clearly and frankly: spending the weekend laid-up is not at all fun. Especially when you're afraid to move. The wrong sudden movement can cause sharp, shooting pain
This pain causes the back muscles to tighten, hence causing yet more pain.
Laughing is the best medicine, except when it causes severe pain.
Coughing and sneezing... forget about it. Don't even think about it.
I do have goofballs to take for the pain. And despite my resistance to taking MORE drugs, I have been taking these when needed.
Thankfully, I'm on a chemo break this week. Less for me to have to deal with.
Needless to say we've been spending a lot of time weeping this week. The list of reasons really hasn't changed much over the last few months, but the frequency of bursting out in tears has shot up considerably since I hurt my back. Here's just a few of the reasons:
And there's so much more that I could list. In fact, there's about 4 pages of things that I wrote, but I'm not going to list them all here.
This list wasn't a cry for sympathy. Think of it more as a glimpse into the emotional life of two people who are scared and tired of fighting something that doesn't fight fair.
posted by L @ 11:16 PM
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Hey,
Speaking of laughing, and such, I don't know if you like Bill Murray and Richard Doofis, but recall that one movie, where Murray was taking "baby steps"?
Well, you've been dealt a new set of "orders", and new plan,a new direction. You didn't volunteer for this, it was just given.
You have a new journey to prepare for, one where you just can't run to REI and use Joe's discount card to stock up supplies.
You are going to have to rely on your wits, taking in the various clues as they come, and cautiously lay down a plan of attack.
The pace you set is your own. There is no time limit on completing this journey. Take it easy, and yes, this is the time, take baby steps, work on your plan, set goals, and don't feel bad about not meeting them. Everything to do, reveals a clue. Don't start off with 5 gallon buckets, as you've discovered!
Rest, build your strength. For the powers of darkness are ever present. They grow stronger. You can defeat them. With time. With Lyn. With your family. With your friends. We are traveling with you!
Hnnnh
A List of all the "cool" things E has:
* An awesome wife who is in this with you, the good and bad and ugly.
* Boatloads of friends that love and pray and wish you nothing but a full, healthy life free of the challenges of late.
* Cool collectible of the Abominable Sno-Man from Rudolph the Red-nosed reindeer.
* A great company that stands behind you in support of you through this process.
* An amazing sense of humor.
* A cool nickname like Chaz...
* The ability to write such open, candid reflections on life that make everyone who knows you feel enriched and lucky to call you their friend.
* Gummy Sharks
* the list goes on..and will go on.
Stay Strong E. Cheers to you...
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