Monday, 2/7 -- It may not be a Superbowl Ring, but I'm wearing it with proudly.

It was very disappointing that the Eagles lost yesterday, however, I am very proud of them. They have no reason to hang their heads in shame.

They portrayed the same character, talent and class in last night's game that they portrayed all year. In a high pressure game against a very good New England team, that's impressive. Lesser teams would have embarrassed themselves. The Eagles stayed true.

Thank you for another fun season. I'm looking forward to another fun season of Eagles football next year.

In other news.
I'm feeling a little better each day as I clear out this old chemo stuff. I must admit that it still has a profound hold on me. I'm much weaker today than I expected to be at this point. Plus it's a weakness that is very deep in my core. I haven't experienced this kind of feeling in the past.

I continue to have numbness in my arms and legs. That is something that should have also passed with time.

I've been waking up with extreme pain in my legs each morning. So intense that I've been taking pain medication to fight it, and to help me sleep. For me to take pain medication, that's significant.

Tomorrow is my weekly doctor's appointment. We'll bring up all these issues with him. I want to suggest that I take another week off from chemotherapy. I want to make sure that my body returns to "normal" as much as possible before we sally forth with the next treatment.

Hopefully the oncologists will also think that's a good idea.

Mentally I've been OK. I know thee darkness of the blog has alarmed a lot of people lately. As well it should have. This can be, after all, a dark subject. It is about life, a life in balance. Darkness and light, positive and negative, laughing and crying. Without that contrast, it's just not realistic. As you all should know by now, I am foremost a realist by nature. That won't change.

As I said, mentally I'm doing ok right now. Kind of even-keeled.

I'm wearing my wedding ring for the first time since July. I had to stop wearing it when I lost all the initial weight. It just wouldn't stay on my finger. Lyn had a jeweler put a brace thing inside so I can wear it again. I can't tell you how much I missed wearing her ring on my hand.

Just try and take it off of me now.